Nope sorry, no football talk here.
So I have officially lost 10 pounds. while I should be excited, I am only mildly entertained by this. I should have lost these ten pounds last month! its been 2 months now and that's all I've lost. I don't know what the deal is. I'm torturing myself for almost nothing, I mean at this rate I'll lose my goal weight of 50 pounds MAYBE by the time I'm 50 years old! I have a feeling its because I'm not varying my workouts enough so Joslyn and I are going to check out Prairie Life Fitness down the street to see how cheap they are and what they got going on as far as classes. I think fitness classes will help keep my body guessing and maybe actually force results.
My eating isn't PERFECT but its still 5000 times better than it was. I am now packing lunches and I still havent been to fast food! I did go out for Old Chicago the other night which wasn't good but at least I'm working out now as opposed to eating it and not working out...
other than that I've actually been in a pretty good mood the last couple days. Probably due to the perfect weather and some good new music, but there is always that little voice in the back of my head "don't get used to it, something bad is going to happen soon..." Ialways have this sense of impending doom...
but at least my road block has only pushed me harder instead of making me want to give up...so theres that...
J F C,
Mrs. Pattinson
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
It's Like Monopoly but you can't quit when it gets boring nor when you lose all your money....
Feeling pretty damn frustrated right now.
This car thing is overwhelming, and most of it I didn't bring upon myself so I feel cheated. Apparently when you get in a car accident that wasn't at all your fault, the police still file it as your fault. They are probably in cahoots with the insurance agencies to get more money.
Anyway, Tiffany got me this book " If Life is a Game...These are the Rules". The book provides the "Ten Rules of Being Human" and I cant even succeed at Rule One "You Will Receive a Body", well shit. If I cant be successful in finding a way to appreciate this vessel I have been given, then how can I continue on with the other nine rules? I cant even fathom a way to comprehend Rule One let alone accomplish the transformation "from a mere vessel into a beloved partner and lifelong ally, as the relationship between you and your body is the most fundamental and important relationship of your lifetime. It is the blueprint from which all your other relationships will be built."
This author makes money selling information that people should inherently know! I mean, we KNOW this, but no one can ACT on this. I mean my god, even if this was pseudoscience-pseudo-psychology bullshit, it totally called me out on this one. I mean the chapter should be illustrated with my flipping PICTURE. See Jaime run. See Jaime not accept her body and in so doing cause a chasm between her and all of those around her that will affect the way she lives and ultimately cause her self worth to plummet to an astounding low, in which she further alienates herself by being so fundamentally different than those around her (i.e people who have bumper stickers on their computer that read "Beef: its whats for dinner").
without a solid foundation, the house will crumble. well mine is MOLDING by this point. something has to change.
Did you catch the part of the quote above that said " THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU AND YOUR BODY IS THE MOST FUNDAMENTAL AND IMPORTANT RELATIONSHIP OF YOUR LIFETIME" ?
ooo dear god. I'm in for a long haul.
I'm going to write my own damn book "If Life is a game...This is how you Cheat and Scrape By with Minimal Satisfaction"
J F C,
Mrs. Pattinson
This car thing is overwhelming, and most of it I didn't bring upon myself so I feel cheated. Apparently when you get in a car accident that wasn't at all your fault, the police still file it as your fault. They are probably in cahoots with the insurance agencies to get more money.
Anyway, Tiffany got me this book " If Life is a Game...These are the Rules". The book provides the "Ten Rules of Being Human" and I cant even succeed at Rule One "You Will Receive a Body", well shit. If I cant be successful in finding a way to appreciate this vessel I have been given, then how can I continue on with the other nine rules? I cant even fathom a way to comprehend Rule One let alone accomplish the transformation "from a mere vessel into a beloved partner and lifelong ally, as the relationship between you and your body is the most fundamental and important relationship of your lifetime. It is the blueprint from which all your other relationships will be built."
This author makes money selling information that people should inherently know! I mean, we KNOW this, but no one can ACT on this. I mean my god, even if this was pseudoscience-pseudo-psychology bullshit, it totally called me out on this one. I mean the chapter should be illustrated with my flipping PICTURE. See Jaime run. See Jaime not accept her body and in so doing cause a chasm between her and all of those around her that will affect the way she lives and ultimately cause her self worth to plummet to an astounding low, in which she further alienates herself by being so fundamentally different than those around her (i.e people who have bumper stickers on their computer that read "Beef: its whats for dinner").
without a solid foundation, the house will crumble. well mine is MOLDING by this point. something has to change.
Did you catch the part of the quote above that said " THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU AND YOUR BODY IS THE MOST FUNDAMENTAL AND IMPORTANT RELATIONSHIP OF YOUR LIFETIME" ?
ooo dear god. I'm in for a long haul.
I'm going to write my own damn book "If Life is a game...This is how you Cheat and Scrape By with Minimal Satisfaction"
J F C,
Mrs. Pattinson
Monday, February 7, 2011
Static-x
weekends are the bane of my existence.
I was unable to work out friday, saturday and sunday. This makes for an unproductive week.
I am static. I am stationary. I am stagnant.
I have not lost or gained anything this past week so I am not feeling too good about my situation.
That being said, I have gotten myself into some interesting social situations, and dug trenches that are deep and its raining so my running away is inhibited.
Besides, there is cause to celebrate...the witch is gone off into Lord of the Rings land to do some elves and whatever mythical creatures she fantasizes about. so I'm free to roam! and roam I shall!!!
nothing else to report. so I apologize for the boring blog, but it is indicative of my life so there you have it...my life in a nutshell.
J F C,
Mrs. Pattinson
I was unable to work out friday, saturday and sunday. This makes for an unproductive week.
I am static. I am stationary. I am stagnant.
I have not lost or gained anything this past week so I am not feeling too good about my situation.
That being said, I have gotten myself into some interesting social situations, and dug trenches that are deep and its raining so my running away is inhibited.
Besides, there is cause to celebrate...the witch is gone off into Lord of the Rings land to do some elves and whatever mythical creatures she fantasizes about. so I'm free to roam! and roam I shall!!!
nothing else to report. so I apologize for the boring blog, but it is indicative of my life so there you have it...my life in a nutshell.
J F C,
Mrs. Pattinson
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